Life is like a mirror...

2009-07-01T21:36:00.001+10:00

SO many things...

2009-06-30T03:05:00.002+10:00

I fucking regret ... but if i could go back in time, i wouldn't change a single thing...

i would just make the same mistakes faster.

The words I never said

2009-06-29T16:03:00.004+10:00

Thank you so much.

Thank you so much for making me happy.

Thank you so much for being a friend.

Thank you so much for everything.

Thank you so much for showing me the other side of me.

Thank you for being so amazing, so captivating, so alluring, so incredible, so unique and so impossibly beautiful both in person and in soul.

Thank you for being you.

Until the world comes to an end.

2009-06-29T12:15:00.003+10:00

I'm all alone in the big city,
thrown away like an empty can.
If love is love until we know everything about each other
Then let's sleep forever...

Until the world come to an end, we won't be apart.
I wished it for countless nights
Why do only the irretrievable times shine?
Even the worn-out heart is broken.
Melancholically fleeting thoughts... on this tragedy night

And so, people seek an answer
And lose something that's irreplaceable
A city filled with desires, even the stardust
in the night skies doesn't shine on us

Before the world comes to an end, please make me listen.
A catastrophy well suited to a flower in full bloom...
While everyone wishes, no one believes in eternity.
...Even so, they certainly dream about tomorrow.
Short-lived days and... this tragedy night

[Instrumental]

Until the world come to an end, we won't be apart.
I wished it for countless nights
Why do only the irretrievable times shine?
Even the worn-out heart is broken.
Melancholically fleeting thoughts... on this tragedy night
This tragedy night

Caught in the glittering moment - = [ 煌めく瞬間に捕われて ] = -

2009-06-29T11:08:00.009+10:00

Awakening
from an intense dream
to the strongly sunlit morning.

While listening
to my favorite tune
I toss the shirt I'm washing over my arm.

A guy last night said in a tired voice,
"I want some excitement" "I want to break up now."
Please don't be down.

Caught by the glittering moment, I want to be enthralled
Repenting isn't wonderful,
but after all you're not alone.

The tears starting to overflow are beautiful
People will, once again, be able to spend time
on an unending journey.

[Short Instrumental]

Today, let's take
just a little detour,
and walk to the station.

Delighting in
the unfamiliar scenery,
on a whim, we entered the corner thrift shop for a look.

Something's unusual... Looking across the tatami mat
at an angle, there's definitely
something new over there...

Caught by the glittering moment, I want to be enthralled
Repenting isn't wonderful,
but after all you're not alone.

The tears starting to overflow are beautiful
People will, once again, be able to spend time
on an unending journey.

[Instrumental]

Caught by the glittering moment, I want to be enthralled
Repenting isn't wonderful,
but after all you're not alone.

The tears starting to overflow are beautiful
People will, once again, be able to spend time
on an unending journey.

I'll never forget.

2009-06-28T07:08:00.003+10:00

It felt like my whole world shattered when I cried in your arms.

But at the same time, it felt like you were trying your hardest to pick up the pieces.

But I guess sometimes good bye's the only way.

Goodbye my best friend

Goodbye my first and only love

Goodbye a part of me.

Goodbye Rachel.

I'll never ever forget you.

x

Old But Brilliant

2009-06-19T04:18:00.004+10:00

I know gundam wing is so old that it sat next to jesus christ in third grade, but fuck the songs are addictive.

White Bear White Bear

2009-06-19T02:58:00.000+10:00

I just read back on the post I wrote on sunday.

I think I need a fucking huge cup of harden the fuck up.

*nodz*

Get to know me.

2009-06-18T16:55:00.002+10:00

*Getting To Know Me*
1) Hair Color	Black
2) Height	Too Fcking Short
3) Right or Left Handed	Tots Ambidextrous - Can masturbate with both hands
4) Your Weakness	How incredibly handsome I am
5) Your Fears	That one day I won't be incredibly awesome anymore
6) Your Most Overused Phrase	"I am such a modest person."
7) Thoughts First Waking Up	Her.
8) Your Best Physical Feature	My tiny asian penis
9) Your Bedtime	Sleep is for the weak
10) Pepsi or Coke	Both at the same time
11) McDonalds or Burger King	Both at the same time
12) Ice Cream or Yogurt	20 tubs of each
13) Pizza or Chinese	Chinese noodles on pizza yo
14) Cappuccino or Coffee	Cappucino amalgamated in coffee
15) Chocolate or Vanilla	Caramel
16) Been Arrested	Too fast for cops
17) Do You Smoke	Wish I didn't have a joint in my mouth right now
18) Do You Drink	Water? Sure
19) Do You Swear	Fuck no
20) Do You Sing	I AM SING
21) Have You Been In Love	No, But i have loved.
22) Do You Believe in Yourself	110% brother
23) Ever Been Depressed	For like 10 minutes when my best friend died, sure.
24) Do You Get Along With Your Parents	Tight like a virgin
25) Do You Have Any Brothers or Sisters	2 brothers, 1 inbred sister we keep in the basement for sexual pleasures
26) Do You Like Thunderstorms	love 'em
27) Do You Play an Instrument	My horn of the gondor?
28) Do You Have Any Pets	A dog who thinks hes a cat
29) What Is Your Favorite Color	blue
30) Ever Been Drunk	alcohol has no effects on me
31) Ever Shoplifted	i dont know what 'paying' means
32) Ever Gotten a Speeding Ticket	Yeh, in bed.
33) Number of Piercings	none
34) Number of Tattoos	none
35) Number of Things in My Past I Regret	One
36) Close With Your Family	We play spastic eagle with my mom
37) Gotten Into a Fight	yeh, the guy owned me though, had better equips than me and higher level than me
38) Favorite Sports Team	sports?
39) Do You Do Drugs	only on days which end in 'Y'
40) What Kind Of Car Do You Drive	hell car? what is this? medieval times? I use a space rocket yo
41) Do You Like to Clean	no i'm a dirty rat
42) Do You Like to Cook	cooking is for women
43) Broken a Bone	like to see my bones of titanium even bear a scratch
44) Played Truth or Dare	only truth, coz i'm a pussy asian
45) Believe in Love at First Sight	no
46) Phone or IM	IM
47) Wal-Mart or Target	both are shit
48) How Do You Want to Die	benjamin button style.
49) What's Annoying You Right Now	Her.
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If I become your memory...

2009-06-18T00:24:00.001+10:00

... Would you ever play me again in your head?

~

I wish I had more time with you...

2009-06-17T20:34:00.001+10:00

... Psyc1020,

seriously what the fuck

Why so soon, motherfucker shit cock fuck this saturday, omfg!

I'm not ready.

Fucking lul

2009-06-17T19:52:00.002+10:00

Paul' says (7:51 PM):
oi
i think i can settle it
superman would win
Sp'zike says (7:51 PM):
yeh
Paul' says (7:51 PM):
cause goku takes like 6 episodes to power up
Sp'zike says (7:52 PM):
LOL
Paul' says (7:52 PM):
supermans super all the time
so he just punches him while powering up

~

Paul' says (5:11 AM):
how many feminists does it take to change a light bulb?

none, feminists can't change anything, LOL

Fight of the Millenium

2009-06-17T18:59:00.007+10:00

On to the main topic, who would win in a fight...

This badass...

Or

This hardnut...

Man, seriously it would be one hell of a fight. And if I ever got to witness it, I would cream in my pants 50 times in 1 second.

Literally.

Let's do a rundown of both characters:

Firstly, Goku-
~ He is pretty much unstoppable in his super saiyan 4 form.
~ All the shit that he's been dragged through, seriously nothing can be compared to that.
~ His strength is incomparably incredible, in one episode he managed to do 1000 push ups on one finger with 50 times the gravity.
~ He has countless moves which are made for destruction.

Secondly, Superman-
~ NOTHING but kryptonite can HARM him, and even then kryptonite can't kill him, it just makes him weak.
~ His rejuvenating power is ridiculous, he seems to heal everything in just a matter of seconds.
~ While goku can also fly, in his old comics, superman literally fucking flew out to space and being the badass that he is, tied a motherfucking chain around an entire planet and pulled it to safety from crashing into the fucking sun.
~ Also Superman NEVER shows his full power/strength. So everything you've seen of him is just a percentage of his actual power.

-

I would have more to add on the list, but I really cbf right now.

So seriously, what would happen when an unstoppable object (goku) hits an immoveable object (superman)?

Leave your opinions.

Personally I think Goku would get fucked by the long dick of Superman. But that's just me :).

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

On a side note...
I had a pic up on facebook where i labelled Sam Meyers as my "sweetheart" and he posted in the comments section that he wished i was a DOOR so he could SLAMM me all day LOL.

Lol and christina says:

~

Kid.moMo。 says (6:59 PM):
,,,,, what,,, ur sweet heart is a boy?
and he replys he wish you were a door??? and slam u all day????

~

You're so funny christina, I love my friends ^^.

~

Fuck yeh.

2009-06-17T04:38:00.000+10:00

I want to fuck a scorpion.

I see it

2009-06-16T04:34:00.002+10:00

I see it so much more clearly now.

It's like I've been deluded for so long.

But now, I can see it so clearly. Oh so clearly, it's almost enlightening.

Life Is Like A Boat

2009-06-16T03:39:00.006+10:00

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves will guide you through another day

遠くで息をしてる　透明になったみたい
暗闇に思えたけど　目隠しされてただけ

祈りをささげて　新しい日を待つ
鮮やかに　光る海　その果てまで

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

人の心はうつりゆく　抜け出したくなる
つきはまた新しい周期で　舟を連れてく

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me want to strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shores

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I.... I can see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

旅はまだ続いてく　穏やかな日も
つきはまた新しい周期で　舟を照らし出す

祈りをささげて　新しい日を待つ
鮮やかに　光る海　その果てまで

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me want to strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

運命の船を漕ぎ
波は次から次へと
私たちを襲うけど
それも素敵な旅ね
どれも素敵な旅ね

Funny things on msn

2009-06-15T19:07:00.003+10:00

You drink a shot and you're not an alcoholic, you smoke ONE Joint and you're not a stoner, but you suck ONE dick...

-from Sam Meyers

~

Bitchson says (4:26 PM):
the hardest thing in life is to know which bridges to cross and which ones to burn
Sp'zike says (4:27 PM):
No pretty sure the hardest thing in life is my cock

~

tim says (6:07 PM):
SUSPENDED FROM WOW FOR 3 HURS
2009/06/15 03:44:34 (GMT) - Timbosplice says "u fucking coonlicker"
2009/06/15 03:44:17 (GMT) - Timbosplice yells "dont be shit and/or black"

~

Sp'zike says (5:41 PM):
dude
wtf
my typing speeds like 80wpm
tim says (5:41 PM):
fuck ur shit
and ur asian
Sp'zike says (5:41 PM):
fuck my life

~

҉̔̕̚̕̚҉S҉҉̵̞̟̠̖̗̘ i ҉҉̵̞̟̠̖n g ҉̵̞̟̠̖̗̘̙̜̝̞̟̠͇ ̊̋̌̍̎̏̐̑ says:
Spooning leads to forking
Paul says:
rofl

~

Paul says (3:20 AM):
Chicks need a cock in them otherwise it slike wtf
Paul says (3:20 AM):
and then you get shit like
Paul says (3:21 AM):
2girls1cup

~

Nothing Amazing Happens Here says(1:10 PM):
shes quite a special girl though
Paul says (1:10 PM):
as in mentally retarded?

~

Too-hey-mmy woot... Fck I'm bored says (2:17 AM):
soz dude, cant respond and shiz, watching pornn that takes my whole screen yehh

~

Paul' says (6:56 PM):
look on the bright side
now u can pick up chicks with the wounded soldier card

~

Haha Christina says the Cutest things with her english:

~

Kid.moMo。 says (7:56 PM):
yeah. i know .. regret?
Sp'zike says (7:56 PM):
mm yeh kind of
Kid.moMo。 says (7:57 PM):
yeah! let princess christina show her magic! everything back!!

~

Kid.moMo。 says (8:16 PM):
hey sing. dont miss her every mins la.. waste ur time and neuron cells..

~

Kid.moMo。 says (8:17 PM):
o.. before u suicide tell me ur bank account. and give ur dog to me. i want one.
Kid.moMo。 says (8:18 PM):
and u can write a will.. i like to give all my property to christina.
i will be happy =)

~

I AM NOT MAKING FUN OF YOUR ENGLISH, I JUST FIND THE THINGS YOU SAY VERY AMUSING ^^

Life

2009-06-15T00:25:00.001+10:00

Hello!

And welcome to the game of LIFE!

You may start by selecting difficulty level:

Hard Mode - Start as a male.

Easy Mode - Start as a female.

Enjoy!

Life Sucks For Free

2009-06-14T10:30:00.004+10:00

I don't know who to turn to, when the person who I thought I could rely on the most turned out to be the biggest joke.

So I'm going to write it here, I don't fucking care about anything anymore.

I'm not even going to draft this thing so everything I write here will be just my raw, unedited feelings and emotions. Maybe later on I can look back on this post and give it a laugh.

So here it goes,

I look back upon our history and I can see the exact day in which we met.
I remember seeing you for the first time in my life and I thought to myself, "wow that girl is pretty."
I started talking to you and realised how unique and different of a girl you were.
I remember how interesting and special I thought you were.
The exact moment I fell for you was when you punched me hard, the first time any girl had ever done something like that to me.
I shyly added you on msn then to try and get to know you better.
I remember joining ice skating school just so I could see you every week.
My feelings grew so heavy and I knew you didn't feel the same way then.
So I confessed to you to lift the weight off my heart - It was only a temporary fix.
You gave me an apologetic look which told me straight out you were really sorry you didn't feel the same way.
That was okay, I kind of expected it.
You still agreed to be my friend even after something like this.
Thank you, I appreciated it.
I remember then we became best friends.
... But my feelings never changed, I liked you all the same.
I remember then I begun to like you so much, it hurt so much that I couldn't keep the charade up anymore.
So all of a sudden I just blocked you on msn, ignored your calls and texts on my phone and tried my best to forget you even existed.
This too was only a temporary fix.
Soon you found out and you confronted me about.
I thought my heart was healed then and so I accepted our friendship once again.
You still agreed to be my friend even after I selfishly hurt you like that.
Thank you, I appreciated that also.
But my feelings came rushing back like a tidal wave. And I knew I couldn't do the same thing to get over you.
So I tried my best to look for someone else.
I found someone else who was the exact opposite of you.
Subconsciously, I knew I didn't like her. But she was the perfect way to get over you.
But that too didn't work, because everytime I was with you, my feelings for this other girl just flew straight out of the window.
I.was.completely.in.love.with.you.
But I didn't feel that bad then because my heart had numbed to the pain and I knew you wouldn't see me in the same way I did for you. So that was ok.
But one day, all of a sudden, and I didn't even see it fucking coming, you randomly asked me what it would be like if we dated.
I fucking stupidly hinted that I still liked you, you then told me you actually liked me too.
I was in disbelief.
I was in ecstasy.

Why didn't I ever stop to think, "wait Sing, this is too good to be true"
I've always had that fucking mentality my whole life and for the first time I let my guard down, I got burned harder than Al Gore when he got cheated his presidential campaign (okay maybe not THAT bad.)

Up to this point in life, I've always thought, "hey maybe I'm just not meant to be happy in life."

Yet the first time in my life, I truly felt happy (which was rare) and felt that life was actually beautiful (which is even rarer).
So we started dating.
Everything felt great for the first couple of days, but then it felt like you changed into somebody else over-night.
Every time I called you, I felt that you gave off vibes to tell me to fuck off.
Every time I started an msn conversation with you, you were busy. You preferred to do other things than to talk to me.
Every time I saw you in real life, it felt like you didn't want to be there.
I understand now you did it to 'protect' me from hurt, trying to distant yourself.
But what you didn't realise was that you leaving me out in the dark hurt so much more.
I didn't know what to do.
It felt like I did something wrong. But I didn't know what.
I spent hours upon hours, days upon days, thinking about what I should do.
And how to act properly as someone who could be there for you.
But I couldn't work it out because you were so fucking secretive and obscure about your feelings.
You drove me crazy.
I tried everything:
- I tried giving you more affection than normally
- I tried to act as though we weren't going out
- I tried to give you the "cold shoulder" too
- I tried to act unaffectionate too
But nothing worked. You stayed the same.
I remember telling myself that I was going crazy and that I should be happy.
... But deep down I knew this wasn't the girl I fell in love with. It felt like you became somebody else.
While it didn't hurt me more then than it does now, it was intensively annoying.
I always felt like we understood each other so well that you wouldn't need to hide anything from me. Obviously I was wrong. Clearly I was fucking blind.

So I confronted you about it and... long story short: You said we don't have enough chemistry.
I still don't really fucking understand that. You liked me didn't you? Well you said you thought you liked me, but yeh you fell out of it in 2 days or so. I don't get it, how can your feelings be so shallow and mine be so deep?
I have so many fucking questions and not enough answers.
I felt that there wasn't enough chemistry because you didn't allow it. The chemistry wasn't there because you were so unaffectionate that it felt like you didn't want to be there.
But you said you were so unaffectionate because of the lack of chemistry.
So tell me, which is it? WTF? What is chemistry anyway? It's how well we can relate to each other and understand those feelings right?
Well how can I relate and understand when you didn't let me?

So I asked you what I can do to fix it.
You said nothing.
So I asked you what I've done wrong.
You said nothing.
So I asked you why don't you feel the chemistry?
You said you don't know why.

Okay.

How can you like someone enough to confess to them... Then take it all back within the week?
How does something like that even work?
I don't know what hurt more, you allowing something like this drag on or how fast your feelings changed.
What really upset me was how optimistic and happy you were about it at the start. And how open you were with the relationship. I even asked you if you needed time and if you were ready to tell everyone about it and you said you were.

It made me happy how you were so willing.
It made me happy how you were so committing.
It made me happy that YOU were happy.

But nup, knowing my luck, nothing ever works out properly, so I did everything to try to make it work out but it still ended up completely fucked up resulting in lots of unnecessary hurt.

Right now I don't know what the fuck to do.
I understand it's not your fault because people can't control their feelings so what can I do?
At this very point I feel so lost confused angry full of hate hurt vulnerable wounded betrayed unappreciated sad alone.
I don't know who or where to direct these feelings to other than to myself.
It's not your fault because you never intended this to happen so who can I blame?
Only myself. Myself for not seeing this coming. It was fucking coming straight at me like a truck.

Something like this was just too good to be true. It's like a pedophile in an orphanage, he doesn't know it but the police was alerted and soon they're gonna show up and he would be the one getting fucked by the long dick of the law.

I fucking hate myself at the moment.
I don't know whether to feel suicidal or homicidal.

It hurts even more how you said it's not my fault and I didn't do anything to fuck it up.
So why is it that I'm always put into these scenarios where "it's not my fault"??
Why is that things I can control, I perform flawlessly but in the things I can't, bad luck tends to be my Best Fucking Friend?
It feels like I was given something that I finally earned but have it taken from me for no reason much too quickly.

This hurt much more than the first time you rejected me, because you gave me a shimmer of hope this time. A glimpse of what happiness could be like. But it all turned out to be a lie.

I learnt several valuable lessons from you though:
- Happiness is just the inability to realise everything is fucked up.
- Love exists, but probably not for me.
- Opening up your heart to someone else is stupid.
- Life sucks for free.

And after all of this shit you dragged me through, I realise I must be clinically/mentally retarded to some extent.

... Because I still feel the same way.

I thought about you nearly every minute of the day and I still do.
I can't explain how ridiculously attracted to you I am.
I can't even begin to describe how impossibly beautiful I think you are.
I can't put into words how incredibly amazing you are as a person.

I'm going to give my heart a break now (hoho no pun intended), I've tried my best to put my feelings into words but I didn't really manage to portray it properly mainly because I fucking suck (as usual) and because my feelings run much much deeper than words.

x

P.S: ...Unlike you, I saw us dating as a chance for a beautiful new relationship to blossom much rather than as a risk to our friendship.

Fuck

2009-06-13T23:40:00.000+10:00

Sing says:
yeh
sigh
fucking hell
[c=#1C6BFF]☺[/c] says:
life's tough aye
Sing says:
no
hes not tough
he's just fucking gay
Sing says:
and fucking annoying
[c=#1C6BFF]☺[/c] says:
xxDDD thats true
Sing says:
and i wish i could knock the shit out of him
but i cant because hes the one giving me lunch money.
[c=#1C6BFF]☺[/c] says:
lol xDD

Grr...

2009-06-08T03:34:00.001+10:00

I fucking hate it when people act like everything's fine and normal but act fucking strange around you. It really puts you in a difficult position.

Because if you were to bring it up that something's fucked, then obviously you would be labeled the fag.

But it's so fucking annoying when the person is completely acting or being a douchefag on purpose instead of talking about.

There are a number of reasons why you can't really bring it up if someone is acting strange to you:

1. What if they are doing it subconsciously? Then obviously you're a fucking asshole for even saying they've "changed"

2. How the hell are you supposed to bring it up without acting like an arrogant fuckwit that expects all things to go your way?

3. Even though it eats away at you, if the person keeps pretending, you can't really do shit about it without portraying yourself as a complete fagfuck.

In conclusion, the answer is to stop caring.

I stopped.

Well I tried but it didn't work.

Interests

2009-06-07T01:45:00.000+10:00

So since I've decided to make blogging a FULL-TIME activity, (meaning once a day), I shall introduce myself.

I will start today with what I find attractive in people. And thus I have provided a graph to show all of you exactly what I'm into :D.

Firstly, we must understand while age is no barrier to love, (perfectly fine for a 50 year old man to rectally pulverize a 12 year old) , it certainly does trigger how attractive we see people. Also gender is no problem for me :D.

Below you will find a graph relating to the attractiveness-scope found lingering in my head.

That's all I'm sharing with you stalkers today :)

Birth of my blog

2009-06-05T22:17:00.000+10:00

Hi EVERY.SINGLE.ONE.OF.YOU.AWESOME.PEOPLE.READING.MY.BLOG

Alright well, I've decided to start blogging properly because I am just fucking bored shitless. Firstly I hope you don't criticize my overusage of swear words because:

1. I don't really give a flying-dutchman's fuck.
2. If you do, then you must be pretty gay.

Swear words don't really mean much anyway, I mean why were they even invented in the first place if they weren't meant to be used?

It's like baking a cake for your son and him asking,

"ohh can I eat it daddy?"

and you'll be like

"no fuck off you faggot, I made it just to tempt you so that everytime you ask to eat it, I can go batshit crazy and have an excuse to rectally punish you."

ANYWAYYY... well the main reason I started a blog is because my interests pretty much just involves Rachel May Tan (as seen in my profile) BUT LATELY-and by that I mean all the time-she's incredibly busy and I hardly get to indulge in her hyper charismatic awesomeness.

So instead of being a junior high faggot and sulk about it (yeah you Mitchell Yip of BGS 2009 Graduate, looking straight at you), I've decided to be fucking awesome and take up NEW interests --> LIKE BLOGGING.

So anyway, I'm gonna try and maintain this badass by blogging everyday and I don't really care if no one reads it because in the end I'm still awesome.

Wish me luck with this blog.

A new start with the blog.

A new relationship.

050609 <3

Oh yeah, what's a blog if my ~~readers~~ imaginary friends don't know what I look like?

here have a gawk, you perverted pedophiles of the internet:

P.S. When I said you were all AWESOME.PEOPLE at the start of my blog, I lied, you're actually all huge faggots.

P.P.S. I still love all of you however :)